I probably shouldn’t be writing at 12:40am, I should be resting my eyes like the rest of the normal world would be but for some reason tonight I’m feeling ranty so lets get to it.
I thought I might take a moment to enlighten everyone on what I’m doing right now. For 2011 I’ve done nothing to bring in any income. Yep, nothing. On purpose. Even the projects I’ve worked on art-wise have been purely to satisfy my creative urges.
Did you know that for six years straight I set goal after goal and worked day and night to reach them? Yep I did. If you’re one of my regular readers you’d definitely know this. If not well..now you know.
And then I got tired.
So, I’ve been doing nothing.
I’ve still been having ideas. Crap loads of them. That’s not something I can just shut off. You should see all the plans I have in different folders. There’s one for something called Charli Valentina, another for a place called Toasted, there’s a travel plan, a 5 year financial plan, blog re-design/growth plans, plans for exhibitions and three more ideas that I don’t really even know how to put into words without giving too much away to cyberspace.
The bad thing is they all make so much sense. It seems I’m actually very detail oriented. Ask anyone close to me and they’ll tell you that if you need something done, ask me to do it because I won’t stop until I see a project all the way through from beginning to end and every single detail in between. For some reason people always seem shocked to learn this. Really? Am I that laid back in person? Most likely; I’m not intrusive like most type A personality types would be.
The worse thing is I really don’t give a stuff about doing any of it right now because I’m too happy just being Mum.
Do you remember at the beginning of last year when I went through that turmoil of whether or not to go study or stay at home and continue being a full time SAHM? Sooo much of me wanted to go study to get a move on with the next stage of life but I had some amazing words of wisdom sent through to me from Mothers that have been there, done that (you know who you are, thank you) and the overwhelming response I got pointed out that these years would pass very quickly. Oh how right they were. It’s not that I haven’t experienced these years before a child starts school before, but at the time, I had forgotten just how much I love these years. My time at home with my littlest guy (and then the big ones when they arrive home) is just the best. Yes I could be doing more but right now I’m satisfied that investing all my time playing with playdough, doing endless loads of laundry and vacuuming the house multiples times a day is exactly what I need to be doing with my life at this very moment. The pay is rubbish but the kisses make up for it.
Taking this time off has really helped me learn how to relax again. I’m actually a really fun person, I’d forgotten that. I’ve relearned how to get time out for myself which is probably the best thing to come out from this break. I’m really happy about this. My one new years resolution was to have more fun and I have been!
My schedule of nothing is about to expire shortly but just for a moment and it’s something I’m quite excited about. I have one painting in the works that is due to head up to Auckland next month, I’ll have more on that for you at a later date.
For now though, I’m spending weekends at rugby games and weekdays picking up bits of food from the floor… and I find it wonderful.
Look at those smiling faces. Being their Mum is definitely the best job in the world.
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